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Mary, Mary hold on tightly, over water, under the sea
Today was cold and grey and unspringlike; I didn't go out, I made myself dinner, I read a couple of books and a couple of scripts and worked on nothing except this story which I am still trying not to break. I don't seem to have the brain to work on anything else. I remember being able to multitask around fiction, but I suspect that was when I did not go years between completing stories. Both of the cats have been affectionate and inconvenient. I am telling myself it is not bad to have days like this.
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Thank you! I am not talking about it because I am superstitious, but it is the first fiction thing in a long time that has stayed insistently in my head and I am trying to write it through to the end, also without dying in a research K-hole because apparently it is all historical fiction all the time around here lately.
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Thank you. It feels very unproductive, but I am telling myself that does not matter.
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Frankly I am enjoying these people and this language. I like this writing even when it is not rapid. I just object to feeling as though I have a radio shouting in my ear that I'm self-indulgently taking time I can't afford. I don't know who turned it on and I want to yank it out of the wall.
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*snerk*
Thank you.
suddenly it's a guardians of the galaxy moment
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Oh, my God.
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Thank you. I enjoyed it! Everything else is just so busy, I'm trying not to fall into the Protestant work ethic trap of feeling like I waste time when I spend it on myself. (I'm not even Christian, how did this happen?)
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That too. Do what you love! But make sure you do it well enough to get paid for it! Otherwise what are you, some kind of entitled amateur? Do you have hobbies? Do you think you're rich?
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I'm not saying this was not always part of American sociocultural programming, but I really believe it has worsened in my lifetime. Witness the (pfui) "gig economy."
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https://www.epi.org/publication/uber-and-the-labor-market-uber-drivers-compensation-wages-and-the-scale-of-uber-and-the-gig-economy/
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It is totally not bad for you to get to have one day (or several, or however many) to work on your story, especially after a drought.
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Yes. Because if I have not destroyed myself trying to make money, then I am lazy and I deserve all the bad things that happen to me, I especially don't deserve any help or sympathy; and any time I take off, if it is not devoted immediately to someone else's welfare, is mere proof that I am a drain on the system and a waste of everyone's better-spent time.
I don't even believe this, but I feel I am told it constantly. Not by anyone who cares for me. Not by family or friends. Just like radiation in the air. It interacts poorly, or very successfully, with my default state of mind.
It is totally not bad for you to get to have one day (or several, or however many) to work on your story, especially after a drought.
Thank you. What I really want is the ability to take a week and work on nothing but this story (with time off for Patreon if desired) but I cannot get that and I resent it.
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Thank you.
*hugs*