Equality, do you want it? You're not getting it for Christmas

[sovay]

Despite feeling especially weird and fractured and furious with a country and now it seems a state that would like me to die conveniently off (bureaucracy, finances, doctors, catch-22's), I managed to get out of the house this evening with spatch and a camera.



The heart of a clematis looks like a sea anemone. Or an alien.



Rose season gives way to daylily season.



A couple of roses are still giving their best Georgia O'Keeffe.



I could not manage to take a picture of these hydrangeas that made them look like as much of a Tiffany pattern as they did in three dimensions.



Remember last year when I discovered that we live across the street from slaveholding ground? There's the monument to prove it. History in this country is like tripping over a branch and finding it's bone. Six hundred acres of land and, to begin with, three human beings.



We walked on. We applauded this unknown plant at the end of Governor Winthrop Road.



The foxgloves were blueshifting.



The texture of the petals as much as their color fascinated me.

I am beginning to feel that my life has become a perpetual process of discovering damage I knew I had taken but didn't understand the depth of and I have to say it's a lot more wearying than any process of discovery has a right to be. My brain just stalled out this evening trying to assimilate the idea of people having loyalty to me. That's terrible. I'm not even sure it's Tiny Wittgenstein. It's just stupid.

Comments

[selkie]

Your poor brain is going to have a just horrible time parsing anything of benefit to your well-being right now, because we’ve had more than a hundred days of continual, slow-smoldering hell and that same brain has been tightly focused on keeping you and your family alive and no human brain is adaptive and resilient forever without some resources and respite, of which there have been exactly dick, so don’t worry about trying to remember that I and others would bring the world down for you and bite your detractors in the throat until they inconveniently bleed; it’s a lot for a brain right now to have to store. It is still true.

[sovay]

so don’t worry about trying to remember that I and others would bring the world down for you and bite your detractors in the throat until they inconveniently bleed; it’s a lot for a brain right now to have to store. It is still true.

Thank you for remembering for me.

Love.

[asakiyume]

That's what I'm talking about. I don't know a heck of a lot about you, Selkie, but this is one thing I do know.

[sovay]

I don't know a heck of a lot about you, Selkie, but this is one thing I do know.

Well, for starters, her fiction is brilliant. (Even though her website doesn't have a bibliography. Even my website has a bibliography! People who like your stuff like to know where to find it!)

[asakiyume]

OMG yes! I *adored* the concept of The Covert Captain. I need to get to READING these.

[asakiyume]

In fact, just purchased. I'll be much more likely to read it if it's to hand ;-)

[sovay]

In fact, just purchased. I'll be much more likely to read it if it's to hand

Hooray! Enjoy! I am deeply fond of this novel.

[selkie]

You could have said I was steadfast, loyal, true-blue, a real pal, delicately violent, but you went for selling my fiction? 😜
I love you.

[sovay]

You could have said I was steadfast, loyal, true-blue, a real pal, delicately violent,

That looked like it was going without saying!

but you went for selling my fiction?

Love you.

(Still mean it about the bibliography.)

[selkie]

Thank you! I hope you enjoy the book.

And I am not a good person, but I try to be a kind person and I will always level a glacier or two for someone I love. Otherwise I am a lazy, nonprofit-do-gooder, mildly socialist sort who invites people over to do their laundry and refrains from picking fights with Republicans. Mostly.

[sovay]

And I am not a good person

This part continues to be inaccurate, but otherwise the description is on brand.