Equality, do you want it? You're not getting it for Christmas

[sovay]

Despite feeling especially weird and fractured and furious with a country and now it seems a state that would like me to die conveniently off (bureaucracy, finances, doctors, catch-22's), I managed to get out of the house this evening with spatch and a camera.



The heart of a clematis looks like a sea anemone. Or an alien.



Rose season gives way to daylily season.



A couple of roses are still giving their best Georgia O'Keeffe.



I could not manage to take a picture of these hydrangeas that made them look like as much of a Tiffany pattern as they did in three dimensions.



Remember last year when I discovered that we live across the street from slaveholding ground? There's the monument to prove it. History in this country is like tripping over a branch and finding it's bone. Six hundred acres of land and, to begin with, three human beings.



We walked on. We applauded this unknown plant at the end of Governor Winthrop Road.



The foxgloves were blueshifting.



The texture of the petals as much as their color fascinated me.

I am beginning to feel that my life has become a perpetual process of discovering damage I knew I had taken but didn't understand the depth of and I have to say it's a lot more wearying than any process of discovery has a right to be. My brain just stalled out this evening trying to assimilate the idea of people having loyalty to me. That's terrible. I'm not even sure it's Tiny Wittgenstein. It's just stupid.

Comments

[yhlee]

*support support*

your photos are beautiful. i'm sorry things continue hard.

*hugs if wanted*

[thawrecka]

Beautiful flowers and leaves!

[gwynnega]

Those photos are beautiful.

:hugs:: for the difficult part.

[genarti]

Your photos are gorgeously luminous. They look hyperrealist, almost, as if they've captured that glow that flowers can have, where half the beauty is how they actually look and the other half is your own emotional reaction to suddenly noticing that splash of bright living color; I'm not sure how you've captured that half in a photo, but you have. I love them.

[sara]

I wonder if you wrote "and three people" on the granite in grease pencil if it would stick.

[selkie]

Your poor brain is going to have a just horrible time parsing anything of benefit to your well-being right now, because we’ve had more than a hundred days of continual, slow-smoldering hell and that same brain has been tightly focused on keeping you and your family alive and no human brain is adaptive and resilient forever without some resources and respite, of which there have been exactly dick, so don’t worry about trying to remember that I and others would bring the world down for you and bite your detractors in the throat until they inconveniently bleed; it’s a lot for a brain right now to have to store. It is still true.

[thisbluespirit]

♥

The pictures are beautiful, as ever - especially that clematis!

[asakiyume]

Let me promise you, in place of an omniscient narrator, that the people I've witnessed in your life are deeply, permanently loyal to you. I don't know a whole lot about any of them, but that's one thing I do know. It's a reason I have for feeling a sense of commonality with them.

Thank you for this bouquet of brilliant colors and textures. I want to touch the lilies in the last one. Your blue-shifting foxgloves are delphinium. The あじさい/hydrangea are THE flower of this season in Japan, and seeing those beauties makes me very nostalgic. And I want to go to the world that clematis is from. Oh wait, I live here. ... Anyway, it's a very healing bouquet for me--I hope that true, real healing comes soon for you.

[troisoiseaux]

History in this country is like tripping over a branch and finding it's bone.

Yeah. :(

Thank you for sharing these lovely pictures - the last one is so cool! and YAY for the brave little plant growing up through the concrete! do you have any idea if the space around it was pre-existent, or it just started growing on its own and someone cleared the circle of concrete around it to give it room to grow? - and I'm sorry things suck right now.

[oracne]

Thank you for the flower pictures.

[a_reasonable_man]

Thank you for sharing the photos. The flowers are beautiful.

There's so much to be said about what people choose to memorialize in monuments. I'm not aware of the history of slavery in New England having any memorials, while the spurious history of the Viking origins of New England has several.

And *hugs*.

[choco_frosh]

https://www.deviantart.com/ursulav/art/Honey-Badger-Love-433587358

[phi]

*hugs*

[sorcyress]

I am beginning to feel that my life has become a perpetual process of discovering damage I knew I had taken but didn't understand the depth of and I have to say it's a lot more wearying than any process of discovery has a right to be.

I have not gotten a chance yet to read the rest of the entry, but *wow* did this line sing to me.