Someday I'll make it right

[sovay]

I'm realizing how tired I really am. I have not been in good health since April, but I really crashed in June when I lost a month's access to my doctors but more importantly my regular medications and I have just not yet recovered. I'm tired when I spend the day running around. I'm tired when I don't leave the apartment. I can get wiped out by an errand to the post office or the library. I have watched almost no movies this month and it is weighing heavily on me that I haven't written about any for my Patreon—I don't want to shortchange my patrons—but just getting my work done day after day has been leaving my brain feeling like a wet slate. Everything feels like a responsibility. I am not complaining that Readercon went as well as it did, but I think it may have been done entirely with adrenaline and mirrors. I can't even calculate how much I didn't sleep this month.

Forget the Sleepless Shores has now acquired several extraordinarily complimentary blurbs which I am looking forward to having attached to the book itself, the physical object which I am also looking forward to. I am working on putting a website together before the street date which is now less than two weeks away. Then it will be in the wild and that should be fascinating.

Our cats remain good cats. Hestia earlier squiggled underneath the drawers of my desk like a ferret; I have no idea what she was hunting or if she caught it, but she emerged finely coated with dust bunnies and looking pleased with herself. Autolycus has been hanging out on his favorite stack of boxes, dangling his long arms like some kind of Anansi-kitten:



Our eldritch cat.

Comments

[yhlee]

*support support*

[sovay]

*support support*

*hugs*

[gwynnega]

I hope you feel better and get better sleep soon.

I am really enjoying your book.

[sovay]

I hope you feel better and get better sleep soon.

Thank you. I had weird dreams last night, but at least I slept.

I am really enjoying your book.

I'm so, so glad!

[lilysea]

but I think it may have been done entirely with adrenaline and mirrors

I continue to be surprised and delighted by your turns of phrase, even when you haven't been sleeping. ^_^

[sovay]

I continue to be surprised and delighted by your turns of phrase, even when you haven't been sleeping.

Thank you.

[lilysea]

Solidarity on the not-sleeping.

I've been awake until 5am, 5:30am, 6am, 6:30am lately, and getting so little sleep that my balance-problems/falls-risk are becoming more of a danger.

This morning I got into bed at 5am, and had a massive anxiety attack that kept me awake until after 7am. So I didn't get anywhere near enough sleep to be functional. :(

[sovay]

Solidarity on the not-sleeping.

Thank you, and I am so sorry!

[pameladean]

I hope sleep will visit you soon.

THAT PHOTO! I think you've mentioned that he is polydactyl, but I haven't really seen his paws so clearly before. Also his nose is adorable and he looks as if he is plotting his next coup.

P.

[sovay]

I hope sleep will visit you soon.

Thank you.

THAT PHOTO! I think you've mentioned that he is polydactyl, but I haven't really seen his paws so clearly before. Also his nose is adorable and he looks as if he is plotting his next coup.

Yes! Those are the famed double paws of Autolycus, suitable for folding around bottlecaps and snapping up unconsidered trifles. He's very gentle with them and they are huge.

[pameladean]

They are amazing. I wonder what else he will think of to do with them.

P.

[thisbluespirit]

I'm realizing how tired I really am. I have not been in good health since April, but I really crashed in June when I lost a month's access to my doctors but more importantly my regular medications and I have just not yet recovered.

That souns very reasonable (but completely rubbish) - I do hope you begin to recover again now.

Your cats are, indeed, splendid.

[sovay]

That souns very reasonable (but completely rubbish) - I do hope you begin to recover again now.

Thank you. I just feel like it couldn't hurt.

Your cats are, indeed, splendid.

I am glad you agree! We tell them so often.

[choco_frosh]

:(
Let me know if there's anything I - or my car - can do that would help you be less exhausted.

[choco_frosh]

PS: Assuming I'm not frantically viewing apartments this evening, do you want to get ice cream?

[sovay]

PS: Assuming I'm not frantically viewing apartments this evening, do you want to get ice cream?

Keep me posted about your apartments?

[choco_frosh]

As noted on FB, met some awesome people on Thursday. (One drawback: they're in Belmont.) Seeing a couple of other possibilities tomorrow and Monday.

Ice cream?

[sovay]

Ice cream?

I think I crashed for the evening, I'm really sorry.

[asakiyume]

I only just started following your spouse on Twitter--and one of the first things I saw was this excellent photo. What a great cat.

I plan to have a review for you by the time of your launch--very much enjoying all the tales I've never read, plus reading afresh the ones I have.

I hope when your medication does finally come, it will help. In the meantime, I hope you're able to seize whatever minutes of rest come your way. Don't worry about the Patreon--no one will feel shortchanged. Each review you write is better than two or three elsewhere.

[pameladean]

I wanted to add my approval to these remarks about the Patreon. Most patrons who've ever expressed an opinion to me want to support their creators. The rewards are lovely, but they are really a bonus to the main desire to make valuable work easier and people's lives smoother.

That is how I feel as a patron as well.

P.

[sovay]

That is how I feel as a patron as well.

Thank you.

[sovay]

I only just started following your spouse on Twitter--and one of the first things I saw was this excellent photo. What a great cat.

He really is. Even when he comes up behind me as I lie on the couch (as he did just now) and starts chewing my hair.

I plan to have a review for you by the time of your launch--very much enjoying all the tales I've never read, plus reading afresh the ones I have.

Thank you for telling me! I'm very glad.

I hope when your medication does finally come, it will help.

I have my medications again, fortunately. It's just that everything did not then snap back at once to normal. I feel I should have recovered faster and I really have not.

In the meantime, I hope you're able to seize whatever minutes of rest come your way. Don't worry about the Patreon--no one will feel shortchanged. Each review you write is better than two or three elsewhere.

I'm trying not to worry. I feel like I'm cheating people. There is an entire rabbit hole in here I try to stay out of.

[rydra_wong]

I love the arm-dangling. It makes him look like a glove-puppet.

[sovay]

I love the arm-dangling. It makes him look like a glove-puppet.

He is a ridiculously constructed cat and I love him.

[lemon_badgeress]

as one of the patreons, I don't care. Sometimes we get extra reviews, sometimes there's a gap. It's cool.

I just wish you sleep. And less paperwork fuckery.

[sovay]

as one of the patreons, I don't care. Sometimes we get extra reviews, sometimes there's a gap. It's cool.

Thank you. I worry about leaning too hard on people's patience.

I just wish you sleep. And less paperwork fuckery.

It's very much appreciated.

[selkie]

Pitchforks still at the ready; you have only to call.

Review incoming.

And it's coming up on eighteen years since I thought there was a ghost singing along the pipes in the hallway, and chai ought to count for something energetic and life-giving.

[sovay]

Pitchforks still at the ready; you have only to call.

As soon as I figure out how to pitchfork an abstract idea, you're on speed-dial.

Review incoming.

Yay!

And it's coming up on eighteen years since I thought there was a ghost singing along the pipes in the hallway, and chai ought to count for something energetic and life-giving.

Thank you.

*hugs*

[nineweaving]

Cleverly disguised as a glove puppet! That's an endearingly spatch-like view of Autolycus.

Do not, I beg you, fret about Patreon. The reviews come like meteors, now and then or all at once, but always dazzle and delight.

...several extraordinarily complimentary blurbs

Proud to have been asked. I only hope I've done you justice.

Nine

[sovay]

Cleverly disguised as a glove puppet! That's an endearingly spatch-like view of Autolycus.

"Little muppet cat!" says spatch, behind me. But Autolycus is quite capable of speaking for himself. Especially when there is food that someone else is eating.

Do not, I beg you, fret about Patreon. The reviews come like meteors, now and then or all at once, but always dazzle and delight.

Thank you. I am trying not to. It's not great inside my head at the moment.

Proud to have been asked. I only hope I've done you justice.

We can let the public decide, but I was honored.

[jesse_the_k]

That cat might just be able to rule the universe.

Another Patron happy to wait, because your writing is always witty, educational, and insightful.

[sovay]

That cat might just be able to rule the universe.

Benevolently! And with lots of treats.

Another Patron happy to wait, because your writing is always witty, educational, and insightful.

Thank you. Augh. Now I feel people have expectations of me!

[ladymondegreen]

<3

[sovay]

<3

*hugs*