It would be some easier, though not perfect, if you had been born in a male body; male bodies get a lot of passes we don't and they get labelled 'eccentric' over 'antisocial.'

It Makes Me Want to Unironically Die to self-promote; like the work or don't! I made it exist and now it is up to you! ...but it isn't like that. It's been a real thing to learn.

You should save that last sentence for something; it came to you from somewhere good and it stands out like a real gift, even if it hurt.