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sovay ([personal profile] sovay) wrote2015-06-26 02:54 am

Strung me around like some necklace that you never gave

I am not sleeping enough. I haven't been sleeping enough for weeks. Months, really, at this point. I have written no poems since the first week of June. I am barely managing to write about books or movies. Several pleasant things have happened this week and yet I feel exhausted to the point of nonexistence: I am having trouble thinking about anything, except that I don't have the option of turning my brain off, either. I feel like I am scraping thinner and thinner and I haven't broken in the last year and a half, so chances are I won't now, but the idea of just keeping on in this state is agonizing. I suppose this is the mindset in which Beckett plays take place. Does anyone want to be in a Beckett play, or does it just happen to them? I thought once I'd gotten Christopher Fry.

Henry Roth's Call It Sleep (1934) not only does not fall apart in its second half, it winds up to a firecracker finish of prose poetry and polyphony and some of the best timing I've seen in a novel lately. David who lent it to me warned me that it "has a kick like a mule," but he did not warn me that I would close the book just smiling in pleasure at the skill of the language. It reminds me oddly of Phyllis Gotlieb's Why Should I Have All the Grief? (1969), her only non-genre novel; both are deeply Jewish and vividly, unconventionally written. I don't know if there is any link between them. For purposes of this post, I don't know if it matters. (Don Marquis, I know she loved.) Read both! But I've evangelized more about Gotlieb over the years, so take from this post an unambiguous recommendation for Henry Roth. I know nothing about his later novels; they were published either at the very end of his life or posthumously and not all the editing was done by the author. Call It Sleep, though, is terrific.

I have to go back to trying to fall asleep. Tomorrow morning, the dentist.
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[personal profile] yhlee 2015-06-26 01:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope you get sleep. *support support*
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[personal profile] thistleingrey 2015-06-27 06:27 am (UTC)(link)
I continue to send good wishes for sleep at intervals, even when you haven't posted about sleep lately. (And for fewer stressors, whether or not there's any relation. Doesn't matter. Adequate sleep and few stressors = generally good if they may be had, IMO.)
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[identity profile] alexx-kay.livejournal.com 2015-06-26 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
I don't think anyone wants to be in a Becket play. But it happens often enough to keep his work... I was going to say "popular", but that doesn't seem quite right. Perhaps "relevant"?

(My wife and I just watched the recent film "A Field in England", which she summed up as "Waiting for Godot, as if directed by Ken Russell." I didn't exactly enjoy it, but it made me oddly happy that such a strange thing could exist.)

OPEN UP AND LET THE DEVIL IN

[identity profile] cucumberseed.livejournal.com 2015-06-26 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Have you seen any of Ben Wheatley's other movies? Kill List (2011), is the only one I have seen, but Kate is a big fan of the others. I would love to hear what you think of Kill List, when you have found some sleep.

Re: OPEN UP AND LET THE DEVIL IN

[identity profile] cucumberseed.livejournal.com 2015-06-26 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Kill List doesn't explain itself. What it does is reveal, dance-of-seven-veils style, and the penultimate veil is The Wicker Man and you know what the last one has got to be, but you kind of hope it isn't.

In a good way. I would show it with said film in an evening, and probably end the night with Hot Fuzz.
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[personal profile] muffyjo 2015-06-26 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Would the name of a competent sleep doctor help?

[identity profile] cucumberseed.livejournal.com 2015-06-26 02:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope that sleep is kind to you, and soon.

*hugs*
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[personal profile] gwynnega 2015-06-26 09:28 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope you get some decent sleep soon.

I've never read any books by Phyllis Gotlieb, but clearly I must!

[identity profile] nineweaving.livejournal.com 2015-06-27 01:49 am (UTC)(link)
I hope the ravelled sleave gets knit.

You have made me excited about reading Henry Roth.

Nine

[identity profile] asakiyume.livejournal.com 2015-06-27 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I am sure no one wants to be a Becket play. I had the experience of reading parts of Endgame with the healing angel earlier this year. I found that even as we were sitting there reading, a heavy weight of nearly suicidal depression settled on me. Nice going Becket. That's some playwriting power you've got there. I don't suppose you could have used your powers for good?

(I understand that it's worthwhile and meaningful to address the possibility of meaninglessness and alienation, but ... it's a memetic plague)

I would like to see you move up to a more joyful thespian experience.