And I am dreaming in blood-red color

[sovay]

This morning I had nightmares so bad I had to look at my cellphone to see whether they'd happened. If it was Saturday, they hadn't; if it was Sunday, they had. It was Saturday, so I fell back asleep and dreamed I had tickets to a production of Julius Caesar that was about two-thirds the one Harriet Walter is currently starring in, but the events of the first nightmare had still happened. I am waiting for e-mails and worried about technology. I am sleeping hours less than I have since before Florida and dreaming badly when I do.

I need to write something.

Comments

[handful-ofdust.livejournal.com]

I totally agree about needing to write, though!;)

[eglantine-br.livejournal.com]

Writing is the Antidote-- for sure. Florida is enough to give anyone nightmares.

[sovay]

Writing is the Antidote-- for sure.

Anything in particular you want to see written?

Florida is enough to give anyone nightmares.

Florida in this case was great—I rode eleven coasters and walked everywhere in sunshine. I wouldn't like to live somewhere the seasons never changed, but traveling is fine and it was particularly lovely this winter with derspatchel. Then we came back and I don't know if it's just that we were catapulted into the holidays with yahrzeit or what, but my ability to sleep has just crashed and my dreams are terrible. It always worries me, relapse. I spent years like this; I don't want to spend more.

[sovay]

I totally agree about needing to write, though!

It's December. This time last year I was miserable and I still finished my Turing/Morcom poem. I don't feel like I have done anything involving my brain in weeks.

[handful-ofdust.livejournal.com]

Grist takes a while to build up, sometimes. Plus, the brain needs traction.