sovay: (Psholtii: in a bad mood)
sovay ([personal profile] sovay) wrote2012-02-27 10:59 pm

If an apple could finish Adam, they could knock me off with a grape

Yesterday I went to hear a semi-staged reading of a dystopian sci-fi musical satire. It was a great deal of fun. It was also a workshop: there were surveys to fill out and a talkback afterward. I have no idea if anything I said was valuable, but apparently the bit where I confessed to having a thing for "grandiosely geeky second-string villains" was entertaining. Bits of the score are still stuck in my head.

Today I sneezed and broke my life: I sorted a box of papers dating back to 2008 and then I had to cancel my plans for the evening. (Which always makes me feel like a complete fruit loop. Yes, I'm totally around, except for how I'm suddenly not.) I have been self-medicating with Margery Allingham, but Tiny Wittgenstein has parked himself on my shoulder and he is a persistent little neurosis. Also, I don't think we have the same taste in mysteries.

I think I am mostly annoyed. I've been sorting papers for the last few days; I hate it, but it hadn't been so draining or depressing as to render me incapable of human interaction. I can't tell if this one went too far back in time or whether it was a cumulative effect. I'm hoping it's short-lived. The only upside has been finding all the notes I took (and in some cases never did anything with), sharply-pencilled legal pages for the most part, which I have set aside in a stack of their own. Some of them turned into poems. Some of them, I have no idea.

Because for half a second a ghost
spoke out of the consoling, congratulating babble

Or they play still in the underworld

a slight and scholar-haired Orpheus
in a solid-striped sweater

He said, "Not all musicians know the way to the underworld."

is because when the chest is opened, it contains not only the physical heart of Davy Jones, but all the memories of his love for Calypso—letters, trinkets, tokens of affection buried and toxic; it is wonderfully metaphoric on different levels. The way it is impossible to forget a person with reminders of them all around. The way a heart may be carried like a locket. The way some things hurt too much to keep even their echoes close.

The Dybbuk at the Theater

He could never be found for curtain calls

Melitta
(Pythia) 4?

In the midrash not even the three angels of the [amulet] know, Lilith threw and turned Adam from the riverbanks of Eden, not her rib but her fingerprints (to structure him a template) anchor him human

As if you were a golem until we met

As if you were a golem until that day
I kissed your forehead and printed there
the characters of all our kind who return
to clay, red figures on the last black ground.

Semoy
Semanoy
Semangelof

What I love about English as a language to write in—although I miss features of other languages, particularly the juxtapositions and rhythms afforded by inflected languages—is the precision afforded by its wealth of vocabulary. I don't select for academe; I select for exactness.

Ranuccio Farnese

Giovanni Battista Piazzetta, "Head of a Young Man Looking Down to the Left"
Giovanni Domenico Tiepolo, "A Centaur Carrying off a Fauness"
Giuseppi Varotti, "A Banquet Scene"

palissander
bleu mazarine

Come ghost out of the machine, Christopher,

the last of the boyish icons put to bed
with a glass of milk and an apple,
saintly safe.

and censorious Cato repeating
delenda est
until no one remembers the god
of the children we burned.

A book of water runs between your fingers,
a book of earth shapes page and spine as turned,
a book of fire, closing, falls to embers,
a book of air is the draw of breath:
its covers shut

I am the fire all your hearts burn in.


I'm going back to Dancers in Mourning (1937). At least I had a month.

[identity profile] strange-selkie.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 04:09 am (UTC)(link)
Tiny Radclyffe is going to snatch Tiny Wittgenstein away for a long, weltschmerzy coffee date! And then there can be another month of non-krep.

I say so, and I usually win. Unless it's my wife.

[identity profile] ratatosk.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
I might be wrong, but it almost sounds like you are encouraging people to write fanfiction about your personified inner demons.
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[personal profile] selidor 2012-02-28 10:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I am now desperately wanting Kate Beaton to draw Tiny Wittgenstein. Every time people are describing him, I see Beaton-scribble.
(especially the shifty-eyed coffee-bucket).

[identity profile] schreibergasse.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Seconded.

[identity profile] rose-lemberg.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
Many of those personified inner demons, alas, are communal. And they seem to be ok with offerings of poetry, highbrow prose, fanfiction, and an occasional scholarly article. They also encourage people to name libations after them.

(love your LJ username)

[identity profile] asakiyume.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
(The icon in use! Yay!)

[identity profile] strange-selkie.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"I have no faith in God," said Tiny Wittgenstein. "Worse, I have no faith in myself, my abilities, or the weight of my contributions to the academic sphere."

"I have no taste in women," Tiny Radclyffe Hall replied, tinily. "So I just take 'em where I find 'em, and poor Una gets the worst of it. I am an invert, did you know? Wah."

"My dear lady, I thought you were a duck. Or possibly a rabbit."

"....wafer biscuit?"

"No, thank you. I have not been sufficiently brilliant today, and even if I were to publish today's findings, in the long run they would not stand up to scrutiny. I will take my coffee without a biscuit, and black, like my bruised heart."

"Mine is bruiseder! I am an invert!"

"Oh, so is everybody. I boffed David Hume's great-great-grandson!"

"How did that work out for you?"

"He died in the War."

"Wah!"

[identity profile] strange-selkie.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Was it the David Hume, or the emo?

I am glad.
gwynnega: (books poisoninjest)

[personal profile] gwynnega 2012-02-28 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Now I wonder what Tiny Djuna would have to say about all this.

[identity profile] strange-selkie.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
She would probably swirl her cloak enigmatically and pour another drink (noncoffee).
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[identity profile] strange-selkie.livejournal.com 2012-02-28 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I try for a certain amount of awesome in my shoulder demons. How's your cat?