Now I feel like Kafka with a bad migraine

[sovay]

After a run of welcomely lovely days, it was perhaps inevitable but deeply resented that I should hit a couple that sucked on toast, logistically, emotionally, resource-wise. I lost one completely to driving to a doctor's appointment that could have been virtual and too much of this afternoon and evening was spent in the kind of frustrated flat uselessness that I hope counts as convalescence because otherwise it's even more of a waste than it feels to me. Without spending that much time in the car, I have been listening to a lot of college radio. Girl in Red's "I'll Call You Mine" (2021) turns out to be a queer outlaw ballad while Jay Som's "Float (feat. Jim Adkins)" (2025) is a sweetly affirming house party. I was doing all right with the Divine Comedy's "Achilles" (2025) until it pulled out Housman and Patrick Shaw-Stewart and then the video was directly in the line of Jarman. I am unduly entertained by the reference to methylene blue in Jealous of the Birds' "Tonight I Feel Like Kafka" (2016).

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[selkie]

*endeavors to be heard over extensive calliope, now infested with mice with the cold snap*

If you hate it so much you want to gnaw down to your own bones, and you’re crying bored and cross at yourself for breathing, it’s working! Sorry! I love you!

[sovay]

If you hate it so much you want to gnaw down to your own bones, and you’re crying bored and cross at yourself for breathing, it’s working! Sorry! I love you!

Doing things makes me feel better! (Except for driving to unnecessarily in-person appointments.)

*hugs*