There's tornadoes in Spain

[sovay]

Physically and emotionally, I had a frighteningly bad night and morning and at the end of this day am in more or less figuratively human shape with the help of both of my husbands and the mother of my godchild, plus my therapist, a stack of pupusas, and horchata ice cream. spatch and selkie having taken the day shift, rushthatspeaks came over after work; I walked to meet him coming from the bus and we ended up at Capen Street Park.



The redbud and the forsythia are flourishing in chiasmus with the street signs.



It is that time of year when I can dive headlong into tulips again.



Whatever their funkiness, the Bradford pears make beautiful clouds.



The lilacs are just starting to break out of bud.



I do not feel in any way like a live thing, so on the assumption that I will at some future date be able to recognize myself as such, Rush-That-Speaks took this picture for the historical record.

After dinner which we ate outdoors at the Radcliffe Quad and dessert which we ate in the car with the windows down, we returned home to watch Lost Highway (1997), which I had not seen since college when it was my second David Lynch after Mulholland Drive (2001). It was as beautifully looped through itself as I remembered, though this time around I could see all the noir that had been broken down for parts and recombined into its hell-spiral. Rush played me Hank Williams' "Lost Highway" (1949) afterward. To match the film's soundtrack, WHRB had gone industrial by the time I was driving back, furnishing Cosey Fanni Tutti's "Tutti" (2019), Recoil's "Breath Control" (2000), and Pigface's "Suck" (1991), which I mistook for its later re-recording by Reznor for Nine Inch Nails. I still feel pretty shocky and a whole lot of exhausted, trapped things, but it was an objectively and subjectively loved day.

Comments

[sholio]

*hugs* I'm so sorry it's been so hard. <3 I hope this is an easier night and morning.

[scifirenegade]

*hugs*

(The pics are beautiful as always.)

[troisoiseaux]

*hugs*

[princessofgeeks]

Feel better soon!

[ashlyme]

Sending love. Out here if there's anything I can do.

(Are Bradford pears the ones that smell like jizz?)

[selkie]

All support, no chill.
(Speaking of support, you should see me in this dress. It has a shrug but it is 77 in my office, so my tzniusedik fucked all the way away and my foundation garment is doing God's work. Or I guess I'm doing God's work and the bra is administrative support. I posted about it mostly for your own and Mattie's amusement and I was on the wrong filter because I was only a quarter ways down my iced coffee and it's only a MEDIUM so I don't DIE, anyway a congregant liked a casual snap of my ...figure, I'm not going to say tits on your journal, and that's how today is going.)

[asakiyume]

I am grateful to your parents, Selkie, Rush-that-speaks, Spatch, the therapist, the pupusa makers, and springtime for catching you and giving you a chance to pull back into this realm. Very sorry for the onslaught of bad.

I love the inside of that tulip. That's a beautiful nest for healing if one could only stay inside for the necessary time.

this time around I could see all the noir that had been broken down for parts and recombined into its hell-spiral. --a line that makes me really curious about the movie.

Sending lots of love--today should be warm and pleasant; I hope it's a good day.

[sartorias]

Those blossoms are so delightful!

[gwynnega]

I am very sorry about the badness, but glad you have support! Those are lovely photos.

I've never seen Lost Highway. I remember the night I watched a VHS screener of Mulholland Drive with a guy I used to watch many late-night movies with, but I remember virtually nothing about the film except that I loved it.

[pameladean]

I'm glad you had good people for your bad night. Bad nights should be BANISHED. P.

[radiantfracture]

This is all very upsetting, except the lilacs. Hugs.

[nineweaving]

I am so glad that you were caught and cradled, and by such a team!

*hugs*

Nine

[thisbluespirit]

*hugs* I'm so sorry for your terrible night (and all the general terrible that really really should get on and be not terrible for you), but I am glad that you have such good people around you. *more hugs*

Those are some more beautiful pictures! <3

Here are some things, which can be ignored or looked at as you wish:

Some random tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/basiltheratatouille/781847527708377088/enwikipediaorg-pageviews-for-rock-hudson-and?source=share (Current DW making people look up old time movie stars.)

Some very pretty Tolkien quote gifs: https://www.tumblr.com/lotrlorien/167383605554?source=share

Somebody's random but beautiful OC: https://www.tumblr.com/maedictus/780747053054771200?source=share

Gifset for A Matter of Life and Death: https://www.tumblr.com/ltbelanna/182836257002?source=share

Yaz in DW always got the best period outfits of pretty much anyone in its history (gif): https://www.tumblr.com/evviejo/781358205343252480/all-of-yazs-looks-ever-56?source=share

Logical consequences of that time the Master was Prime Minister in DW (text): https://www.tumblr.com/basiltheratatouille/781075149012205568?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/teabooksandsweets/630155782443401217/edward-petherbridge-and-emily-richard-in-busmans?source=share

Also random audio thing I am listening to currently, which does feel like a very strange confluence of recent interests: Keep Your Pantheon, a BBC Radio play set in Rome by David Mamet, starring Martin Jarvis. (It's gone on to be a stage play, but this does seem to be the original version.)

♥

I haven't got a link for this because I was told it by Mariocki on tumblr (but they are a reliable source as they usually get these things from Kaleidoscope or the like), but someone has found a lost episode of the BBC medical soap Emergency Ward 10 from 1966, and the cast includes a guest spot from a wee David Collings. As it is a medical thing, I feel reasonably confident that he is likely to be suffering suitably, possibly even dying. Should it ever come round on TPTV or by any means I can see it, I will let you know.