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sovay ([personal profile] sovay) wrote2021-08-16 11:36 pm

Ask my Colonel, for I don't know

I am badly missing the sea at the end of summer. I spent some time this afternoon reading on the front steps, but it wasn't the same. I was reading Dick Francis' Hot Money (1987) and Cat Sebastian's A Gentleman Never Keeps Score (2018), though.

After this year's Arisia and Readercon, I believe I am firmly not a person who was designed for virtual conventions, but I had a really lovely time this weekend. It ended up that two of my program items were pre-recorded, which gave me the ghost-like experience of watching myself while hanging out in the relevant Discord channel. Taking part in the Ig Nobel Dramatic Readings is a highlight of any convention—I especially enjoyed hard-selling the scheme of structured procrastination—and "Children of the Daughter of the Night: Descendants of Tanith Lee" was a blast from start to finish as we fanned over Lee and her identifiable inheritors and the difficulty of tracing the lineage of a writer who for all her influence is still far too much like a secret history than a cladogram. I really would like that tribute anthology edited by [personal profile] handful_ofdust. Gratifyingly, "Grappling with Imperialism's Traumas" blew past the premise in the first round of questions and turned into more of a discussion of the ways in which empires are commonly represented in speculative fiction versus the ways in which they actually function in real life. [personal profile] asakiyume took some notes and I have proposed a sequel panel now that we've done the revolution 101. I desperately missed wandering through the dealer's room and hanging out wherever in the hotel I found people to talk to, but I want those people to be there to talk to in future years, so. Still, it's hard to hug through a screen.

I suspect I will never know what I caught at the start of this month that made me so disablingly ill for almost two weeks straight, but it saw itself out with remarkable melodrama: at the classical wolf-hour of the morning, I spiked a sudden fever, even higher than I had guessed from the chills and the skin-ache and the light-headedness and so on; by the time I woke in the afternoon, it was gone and I felt better already. I thought that sort of thing went out with the nineteenth century. Or at least the early twentieth, pre-penicillin. I am now taking things carefully in case I melodramatically relapse. I am very against coming down with even a different plague.

For Afghanistan, I donated to HIAS. I should call politicians in the morning. I read the letter from the president of Bard College. Papers, papers, the old refrain of borders and visas and governments not caring to get people out, it lost its novelty last century. To this we've come.
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[personal profile] selkie 2021-08-17 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Found it. Found a lineage....?

I had to start with the levity because I am very afraid for AFAB people who can't work, can't go in the street, can't be educated or access their bank accounts. We were an occupying force and that's problematic, but: we left them.
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[personal profile] minoanmiss 2021-08-17 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I hear you. Occupiers wiggle into societies, pushing features apart, changing their shape, then claim that the new shape requires their presence, then yank themselves out and the subsequent voids and imbalances crash down into chaos and worse. I knew this from studying history but it is horriffic to watch in real time, and deeply shameful to be part of it.

Or less loquaciously, we left them, we abandoned them to untold pain, and I share your horror.
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[personal profile] selkie 2021-08-17 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, work bought a HIAS staffer today, so that helped. (We paid the salary of a HIAS person to go work at the Afghani/Pakistani border schlepping people out.)
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[personal profile] minoanmiss 2021-08-18 02:55 am (UTC)(link)

That is excellent on your company's part, and this brave person's, and HIAS for organizing this.

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[personal profile] selkie 2021-08-18 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
Well, we do work for God, or at least one large national movement's perception of the God story, and our texts say very, very specific things about how God feels about refugees. And how we should help them because we were refugees too. And how if we forget to do that, God Godself will be really tweaked.
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[personal profile] minoanmiss 2021-08-23 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
I really hope I don't sound cheesetastic when I say this, but reading this made me so, so happy. I was raised fundamentalist Christian and contrasting what the church of my childhood would consider "working for God" vs what your organization wisely understands this to be is really heartening.
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[personal profile] selkie 2021-08-18 06:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I mean, don't hurry up quick to not punching them.