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There are no words in the English language I could scream to drown you out
So I got home to discover the latest code push from Dreamwidth has effectively broken the site for me. I left a comment to that effect. It does not look as though my comment will make a difference.
I understand accessibility is complicated. This journal and DW in general was one of the few things in my life right now that did not cause me active pain. It was in fact rather sustaining. That has just sharply ceased to be the case. I have no idea what to do. I left LJ for DW. I had planned to stay here until they turned out the lights because I trusted them not to hurt me. Now my eyes hurt. I am a text-oriented person who cannot comfortably interact with the text-based form of social media which is very nearly the whole of my life online. There's nowhere to go from here. (I can't even think about the effects on my Patreon.) I am tired of being a person whose needs are disposable. I am very, very, very not happy.
[edit 2020-07-26 1:21:00] I have temporarily reverted to the old style because the alternative appears to be verging on a migraine. And perhaps in a year the horse will learn to sing.
I understand accessibility is complicated. This journal and DW in general was one of the few things in my life right now that did not cause me active pain. It was in fact rather sustaining. That has just sharply ceased to be the case. I have no idea what to do. I left LJ for DW. I had planned to stay here until they turned out the lights because I trusted them not to hurt me. Now my eyes hurt. I am a text-oriented person who cannot comfortably interact with the text-based form of social media which is very nearly the whole of my life online. There's nowhere to go from here. (I can't even think about the effects on my Patreon.) I am tired of being a person whose needs are disposable. I am very, very, very not happy.
[edit 2020-07-26 1:21:00] I have temporarily reverted to the old style because the alternative appears to be verging on a migraine. And perhaps in a year the horse will learn to sing.
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Yeah, I'm disliking the comment box.
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It was apparent from very early on that I had not come with the standard human neurophysiological wiring. I can barely remember not knowing it myself. The tests were done to figure out exactly what kind of wiring I had instead. I don't know what the clinical answer was; I don't know if there was one at the time. I spent a lot of my childhood and adolescence working on the things that were harder for me than for most people and taking advantage of the things that were easier, which I realize sounds very much like the essential process of being human, but some of its manifestations were dramatic. It's one of the reasons I am now willing to describe myself as neuroatypical but do not identify on the autism spectrum because I have no idea if I would now register as such by current definitions or if I would still be classed as some other thing and in any case the diagnosis is not important to me. I have been studying the way I work my entire life. I care about information that helps me understand that. In that sense this code push has been illuminating, but I still didn't enjoy the process.
Yeah, I'm disliking the comment box.
I am sorry.
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I'm also scary good at pattern recognition, which onceuponatime in the pre-Microsoft Word era made me a really good copyeditor/proofreader. (srsly, one university publishing house I wanted to work for cleared out their editorial department after Word came on the market.)