The way the light falls on the bus on the way home
So I did not sleep at all in the process of making my very early PT appointment for which I had waited two weeks. That was not optimal.
The PT herself listened to me and did some exercises with me and has a plan of treatment and the scheduling for the next month will be a nightmare, but I am actually in less pain than I was when I arrived at her office. That was exactly what I wanted.
Afterward I met![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
a_reasonable_man in Harvard Square and without preamble he handed me, wrapped in brown paper, a secondhand first edition of Ludwig Wittgenstein's Remarks on Frazer's Golden Bough (1979) translated by A.C. Miles and bilingual in English and German. It falls open at the passage obviously most important to its previous owner, since it has been both bracketed and underscored word by word in red ink:
Burning in effigy. Kissing the picture of a loved one. This is obviously not based on a belief that it will have a definite effect on the object which the picture represents. It aims at some satisfaction and it achieves it. Or rather, it does not aim at anything; we act in this way and then feel satisfied.
That was amazing.
And I got home to see thatthisbluespirit has made Elemental fan art for Fermium, who rated a brief mention in my Sapphire & Steel fic "Assignment 96" and may be owed a story of his own to asakiyume. He is played by Robin Sachs. That's just great.
I am now desperately going to try to nap so that I can finish a lot of work that I would much rather ignore in favor of writing, but aside from the thing where I had to pay for taxis both ways between my house and Davis ($19, Governor, thank you very much), today so far has exceeded expectations.
The PT herself listened to me and did some exercises with me and has a plan of treatment and the scheduling for the next month will be a nightmare, but I am actually in less pain than I was when I arrived at her office. That was exactly what I wanted.
Afterward I met
a_reasonable_man in Harvard Square and without preamble he handed me, wrapped in brown paper, a secondhand first edition of Ludwig Wittgenstein's Remarks on Frazer's Golden Bough (1979) translated by A.C. Miles and bilingual in English and German. It falls open at the passage obviously most important to its previous owner, since it has been both bracketed and underscored word by word in red ink:Burning in effigy. Kissing the picture of a loved one. This is obviously not based on a belief that it will have a definite effect on the object which the picture represents. It aims at some satisfaction and it achieves it. Or rather, it does not aim at anything; we act in this way and then feel satisfied.
That was amazing.
And I got home to see that
thisbluespirit has made Elemental fan art for Fermium, who rated a brief mention in my Sapphire & Steel fic "Assignment 96" and may be owed a story of his own to asakiyume. He is played by Robin Sachs. That's just great.I am now desperately going to try to nap so that I can finish a lot of work that I would much rather ignore in favor of writing, but aside from the thing where I had to pay for taxis both ways between my house and Davis ($19, Governor, thank you very much), today so far has exceeded expectations.
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Well, that is no small something, but I'm really sorry about the lack of sleep. :/
And I'm very happy indeed to make elemental fanart! (If only I could draw!)
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I managed to nap for about three hours in the afternoon, by which I mean I fed some importunate cats and crashed onto the bed next to
And I'm very happy indeed to make elemental fanart! (If only I could draw!)
I can't draw at all and I like your fanart! You have a really good eye for faces and colors. I still want more fic with Mercury because I like his art so much.
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Aw, good. <3
And, yes, I must write more Mercury some time. I should maybe rewatch the episode of The Strange Report where Saeed Jaffrey made me cast him, because it's been a looong while now. Mercury was easy, though, because it has so many different uses, which meant I was spoilt for choice on Google images. Some of the others have been spartan. And the Transuranics tend to be spartan results, but with more nuclear explosions and nuclear warning signs.
I've been writing my last few stories from my various Lists of Prompts using a number randomiser. (It saves me being like a donkey with 500 carrots to choose from. And I'm less untired than I thought as I had some trouble not writing that as a carrot with 500 donkeys, which would be a very different situation, although not far off some bad days, I think.)
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I didn't know if I had any right to expect it, but it was so nice. Even half a point down on an honestly unquantifiable ten-point scale is a difference.
(Plus she agreed with my theory for why the entire left side of my face had lit up in pain on the night of the injury, which the emergency clinic doctor had dismissed. Hah, emergency clinic doctor. Hah, I say.)
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Thank you!
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Here's to more of the above.
Nine
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Thank you!
(Regular-sized Wittgenstein is great for my mental well-being.)
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Yes! I really wish I hadn't had to wait two weeks, but I'm really glad I can see her now.
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Thank you! I came home and pitched over for a couple of hours, which does seem to have improved the situation.
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Thank you! I have managed to nap!
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And I'm glad the PT helped.
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It's so good! I had never actually read it before, just excerpts!
"Then after I jumped up and down grinning for a while, I think I kind of levitated to the relevant section of the stacks, and settled in for one of the most delightful hours I have ever had, consisting of Ludwig Wittgenstein telling me that Sir James George Frazer was a total idiot, for many original and awesome reasons."
And I'm glad the PT helped.
Thank you!
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the wait the fuck wow
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About half the remarks are in a typescript according to the editor's note, and the other half, as noted above, are little penciled slips, and they are in fact compelling and coherent.
"Frazer is much more savage than any of his savages, for these savages will not be so far from any understanding of spiritual matters as an Englishman of the twentieth century. His explanations of the primitive observances are much cruder than the sense of the observances themselves."
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See reply above! I strongly recommend reading this book if you can find a copy in your local library (or bookstore, if you are so favored by the gods).
And seems like a much better day than some of the previous, which can only be good.
It was! I am still dead on my feet and hurting, but I am starting to feel cautiously non-despairing about the possibility of maybe feeling differently someday. And the exercises seem useful. And it was nice to be listened to. (And given books and sent fanart.)
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Amen, amen! (Jeez.)
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Thank you!
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//casually just drops this here https://twitter.com/mariebardi/status/1154598347002535936
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Thank you!
//casually just drops this here
I know exactly which scene that is, too!
(I'd seen black-and-white photos of that production, but never one in color before. Look at Curry's face! Time machine, please.)
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It's the scene in the second act where Salieri is once again in the library of the Baroness Waldstädten, once again in a wing-back chair eating his favorite dessert of crema al mascarpone, only this time instead of excruciatingly overhearing the genius of an "obscene child," he's listening to a keyed-up Mozart daydream about traveling to England and gripe about his relationship with his father; the next minute they get the news that Leopold Mozart is dead. Mozart breaks down weeping, Salieri puts down his treat. In the one production I have ever seen and which hasn't left me yet, out of Mozart's guilt and grief, the shadow of the Commendatore from Don Giovanni towers suddenly across the stage. But at this precise photographic moment, Mozart is probably still fretting-mocking-being-shocking-confessing: "And I actually detest him!"
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Thank you!
I had the once-in-a-lifetime pure chance luck of seeing David Suchet as Salieri and Michael Sheen as Amadeus at the Old Vic in 1999. They are always how the characters will look to me. I can still hear lines in their voices.
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https://www.metafilter.com/182275/Gay-Marriage-1957-Edition
and THIS?
https://www.metafilter.com/182258/135-volume-collection-of-field-recordings
also sorry to keep spamming your inbox but then someone in the comments to that last post posted this!
https://jwmrecords.bandcamp.com/releases
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Yes!
and THIS?
NO.
also sorry to keep spamming your inbox but then someone in the comments to that last post posted this!
NO OH MY GOD I NEED A COPY.
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The passage you opened up to is amazing--I think the book belonged to an alternate-timeline you and its presence in ours is perhaps problematic, but you may as well enjoy it while it's here.
Very glad the PT session relieved some of your pain.
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I will do my best! I may have to write some original fiction first.
Meanwhile, hurray for new fan art!
I love the entire series. Bronze, Mercury, Antimony, and Zinc are among my other favorites, although
The passage you opened up to is amazing--I think the book belonged to an alternate-timeline you and its presence in ours is perhaps problematic, but you may as well enjoy it while it's here.
I can't tell if I should or should not let Tiny Wittgenstein read it.
Very glad the PT session relieved some of your pain.
Me, too. I'm not sure how long it lasted, but the fact that it could be done at all feels very hopeful.