I'm not coping well with it, honestly, so I'm just deciding which porn to put where and then I may consider that pig lipsticked.

The plot and content happened because you're incapable of being a bad writer and all the directions in which the project sprawled since you started sending me porn snippets have been good ones, so I am sorry it is being difficult to cope with, but I really have no evidence the results won't be worth it, at least from the perspective of the person who's been wanting to read this thing for like a year.

[edit] Keep in mind your Vilna novel happened because you needed somewhere to put a blow job!