I just tried to pronounce "penalize" in my head, and came up with both pronunciations in an uneasy equilibrium. Maybe I alternate at random, according to the mysterious exhortations of my soul? I'll see if I can figure it out!

Is it a regional difference? I have some vocabulary which I suspect of switching dialects depending on what sounds better around it, but I don't always notice in the moment.

All blessings and love to your soft and watchful guardian of the hearth, and also the window blinds.

Thank you!