I am feeling especially scraped thin and valueless

I'm sorry, that's one of the worst feelings ever. Ideally we shouldn't need reasons to feel/be valuable, we just should... but yeah, easier said than done, right? It may be selfish of me to say this, but your value includes (but is obviously not limited to) being wlling to discuss noir at length... honestly it's a gift! *heart eyes and also hugs in general* <3