You were standing there sorry in the pouring rain

[sovay]

Somehow I have lost my first-generation Sacagawea gold dollar coin which I carried like a talisman in my coat pocket for approaching twenty years. I have no idea what happened to it. I would have thought I'd hear or see if it went flying when I pulled out my wallet or keys, but this afternoon at the post office was the first time I noticed it missing. It must have happened within the last day. The coin was a touchstone; I curled my fingers around it. I know I attach unwarranted significance to objects in that if they are at all important to me their loss feels like just more proof of entropy (nothing lasts, nothing stays, you get to keep nothing, you destroy anything you touch), but I am upset. And I do not want one of the newer issues: I like the panoply of Native history on the reverses, but in D.C. in December the Metro gave me a handful of the newer kind as change and it was immediately apparent how much thinner and lighter they were than mine. Plus it didn't visit multiple states and at least one other country with me. I am consoling myself that if it happened at Temple Israel in Boston where I saw a movie last night with my parents, it will probably count as accidental tzedakah and I'm sure the synagogue can use it, but I would still have preferred to do it consciously, with ordinary money. Today has really not been the greatest of days. I like this macro and otherwise I wish I had not been obliged to get out of bed.

Comments

[gwynnega]

I'm sorry. I hope the coin will turn up, somehow.

[strange_complex]

I'm really sorry to hear this. I lost the Roman coin shown in this icon some ten years ago when I had my handbag stolen from my office (I kept it in there), and have never quite got over it. So I very much feel where you're coming from. Like the previous poster, I hope it turns up somewhere.

[larryhammer]

ObOffTopic: Saw this and thought of you.

[dhampyresa]

I am sorry. *hugs*

[ethelmay]

I have a couple of 2000 Sacajawea coins if you would like one. I know it would not be the same thing.

[shalpacafarm]

It might be inside the lining of the coat.

[umadoshi]

I'm sorry. :(

[a_reasonable_man]

I will keep my fingers crossed for you. I once came home from buying a Christmas tree and noticed my wedding ring wasn't on my finger. I drove back to the lot. It was night. The lot was about an acre, filled with trees and people. I found the ring.

[sara]

I had a day on the beach back in July and found the most marvelous stone, oval and white, just the right size for holding in the hand, and put it in my pocket and drove home, and somewhere on that drive the stone ceased to exist in the universe.

I went all through the car and all through my pockets and I don't know where it went, but it's gone.

Which is to say, I think sometimes they go on their own and it isn't to do with us. But I am still thinking about that stone. If I had had it for twenty years I would be very bothered.

[yhlee]

*support support* I'm sorry you lost something important to you.

[asakiyume]

I'm so sorry. There's nothing good about losing a talisman.

It makes me happy to know that a first-generation Sacagawea dollar was a talisman for you and that it stayed with you for so many years. I wish that it would somehow reappear, but I know how unlikely it is...
... I hope it will be, for the next person who's lucky enough to have it, a treasure in the same way.

[kenjari]

I'm sorry. Things aren't always just things. I hope it turns up somehow. Perhaps it fell out of your pocket at home and the cats are "keeping it safe" for you?

[thisbluespirit]

Oh, I am sorry. That's eally rotten! <3

[choco_frosh]

:(

[selkie]

Child also collects dollar coins in their magpie way. I understand the significance of the original (and had just seen it on you!) but will check their stash for similar. The new ones are like an extended metaphor for what's happening in the world. Not at all suitable for talismanic purposes.

I am sorry the day needed to go be boiled in oil. I hope Arisia treats you well.

[lokifan]

Oh, I'm sorry :(

[nineweaving]

Oh no. I am so sorry. I hope your talisman will turn up in some unexpected corner; or if not, will be found with delight and treasured.

Nine