sovay: (Lord Peter Wimsey)
sovay ([personal profile] sovay) wrote2017-03-27 05:05 pm

My heart can't recognize home

Nightmares I had last night included: our apartment being shown to prospective tenants with no warning; not being able to find the Chinese restaurant in Malden where I was supposed to meet a friend; misplacing a rare and treasured book while visiting a used book store; and the white-capped waves of a glacier-blue sea falling away beyond the windows of an old schoolroom, icy water folding over the faces of black-haired mermaids as huge as ice floes, their flukes as coiling and tangled as deepwater kelp, their arms all pressing drowned human bodies like dolls to their breasts.

I understand three of these dreams. I am in the middle of a newly acquired four-novel omnibus of Margaret Millar and both The Stranger in My Grave (1960) and How Like an Angel (1962) are stories that start with a shake-up of identity, a destabilization that has to get worse before it gets better—if it gets better at all. [livejournal.com profile] derspatchel had an ER visit over the weekend and I am feeling panicky about money and loss. I have no obvious etiology for the Inuit-looking Arctic mermaids except maybe Sedna.

Last night Rob and I watched Nicholas Ray's They Live by Night (1949), which I hope to write about. We had just been discussing noirs with non-urban settings (which is how I discovered there is an entire book on the subject and now I covet it desperately, especially since it discusses some films I really like) and here was another one, plus a kind of romance I don't often see in film noir. Nice use of a helicopter, too.

I have a lot of work to finish today.
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[personal profile] choco_frosh 2017-03-27 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Good luck with all the work!
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[personal profile] skygiants 2017-03-28 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
I used to work with the woman who wrote In Lonely Places! As you might expect, she had an impeccable fashion sense.
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[personal profile] rosefox 2017-03-28 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
Best wishes for Rob to feel better very soon and thoroughly.
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[personal profile] rosefox 2017-03-28 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
That is two bits of very good news! I hope for more tomorrow.
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[personal profile] lilysea 2017-03-28 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
I smiled, impressed, at your use of the word etiology in a blog post. ^_^
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[personal profile] davidgillon 2017-03-29 11:05 am (UTC)(link)
and the white-capped waves of a glacier-blue sea falling away beyond the windows of an old schoolroom, icy water folding over the faces of black-haired mermaids as huge as ice floes, their flukes as coiling and tangled as deepwater kelp, their arms all pressing drowned human bodies like dolls to their breasts.

Even your dreams are poetic!
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[personal profile] gwynnega 2017-03-27 11:57 pm (UTC)(link)
That mermaid dream sounds amazing, albeit frightening.

[identity profile] asakiyume.livejournal.com 2017-03-28 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
I can just see the giant mermaids with the drowned people clutched in their arms.

Rob's okay, I hope?

[identity profile] ladymondegreen.livejournal.com 2017-03-28 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
I'm really glad to hear that Rob is ok.

Sending you both many hugs.

[identity profile] handful-ofdust.livejournal.com 2017-03-29 06:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Giant mermaids FTW!